This is me, happier than I’ve been in a long time. Why? Because I’m finally working on finding balance.
If you’ve been reading this blog for a while, you may have noticed a change in the number of posts coming from me over the summer break and into back to school season in August. I’d like to explain, but this time without excuses.
I’d also like to tell you how I’m going to change because although balancing blogging and high school isn’t the easiest, I’ve realized it’s something I need to figure out for my own personal happiness.
So this post is, in a way, a continuation of How I (Attempt to) Balance Blogging & High School.
First things first: Why did I stop blogging for so long (or blog so irregularly)?
I got the idea of quality over quantity in my head, but it wasn’t until I realized how unhappy I was not writing when I understood I was looking at that concept all wrong.
I thought it was more important that I disappear for a while but come back with one fantastic post than to regularly push out smaller posts that I don’t have the time and flexibility to work on as much.
What I didn’t realize, is that when I would put out a post after not doing so for such a long time, I wasn’t actually proud of it and I wasn’t happy.
I guess you could say I’ve had an epiphany. It’s more important to me that I continue to push myself to be creative and get new creative content out there than to focus all on my energy on school work (or procrastinating my school work).
I would rather put out a bunch of smaller posts that I’m proud of than to put out one big messy one that I’m not.
I would rather make time for a little bit of creativity and expression each week than to sit around and wonder when I’ll have the time to.
In other words, word count is not a good way to measure quality over quantity.
After all, there’s nothing wrong with a quick read!
This blog is something I really love, and I don’t plan on giving up on it. Not now, not ever.
I have so many people around me who love and support me, and they motivate me to keep going. Even though I’m not seeing as much growth as I hoped I would by now, that’s okay and I understand because I haven’t gotten to put in the time and effort so many other people do.
The dream works, but only if you do. I haven’t been, but I plan to. Sometimes life happens.
For example, I started writing this fairly short, straight-forward post a little over a week ago with the intention of it going up last Saturday, but then I got sick, like super sick, for five days. I missed three days of school and I slept for almost two days straight.
Sometimes, things can’t be helped, but here I am, it’s a whole new week, and I’m still determined to share this post with you. Why? Because it’s important. It’s something that I’m sure all creative people go through at least a million times during their life. The struggle of balance.
I thought senior year of high school was going to be all fun and games, and come to find out, first semester is not. Definitely not.
Between college applications (Which I’ve actually done two, just not for schools that I’m actually genuinely interested in going to), senior classes, test scores, work, trying to maintain some kind of social life, and thinking about how this blog is being put on the backburner YET AGAIN, I. Was. Dying.
It’s only September, but already I feel like the worst is mostly over. Other than college applications, which in my true nature, I can’t help but to procrastinate them, I’m already feeling better about life.
I think joining the school newspaper this year may have been one of the best decisions I could have made, I have so many new ideas for this blog and how I can carry them out, things seem less overwhelming at work now, and I’m actually feeling really good about the future, other than, ya know, college because YIKES.
All these things are why I’ve set my new goal for this blog to be one post a week. Some weeks they’ll be big, thought-out, creative posts, sometimes they’ll just be smaller posts, like the occasional rant, a post about Emily or my family, a monthly playlist or favorites, or even another Life Lately, where I sit down and pour my heart out to you about what’s going on in my life at the moment because after all, this is a lifestyle blog.
However, the one thing I never want to lose sight of is the fact that I firmly believe I am a positivity-based lifestyle blog. I believe a positive attitude has the power to change absolutely everything. By choosing kindness, and understanding, you can forever change this world. By spreading love, you give this world hope. Together, we can easily do this.
I can’t wait for what’s next.
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